Hi.
Been awhile.
I haven't written this entire year yet.
I suppose the words haven't been there.
Neither has the motivation to try.
But I feel the need returning.
I remember when I first signed on to blogger. I had these crazy ideas/dreams of big things happening. I figured people all over the country would stumble across my blog and this incredible movement might start. Right here. Looking back, I just laugh at my pathetic self for thinking such thoughts.
I've always been a day-dreamer. My mind constantly skipping about, always finding another world to exist within. I was one who could sit under a cloud-filled sky for hours and unchain my mind to explore those puffs of water-filled molecule masses. I was the guy who played in rock bands before thousands of screaming fans. Played for championship basketball teams and got interviewed after the game by an attractive journalist. Oh, and offered passionate sermons in front of a crowd eating up my every witty and spirit-filled word. All from the comforts of my bathroom mirror. I don't quite understand why it happens. I just know it happens. And it has been happening more often. Why do we day-dream? Is it healthy? Is it healthy to not be living in the here? To repeatedly make up a world in our minds, a world where we are in charge and control everything that takes place? Are my day-dreams trying to make up for something I subconsciously believe are lacking in my life? I am not sure. I just feel they are beginning to hinder my life. To hinder how I see myself and how I view the world around me. Because... in real time... I am not in control. I am so removed from control. I want to start seeing this world, this life through new eyes. To live in the here. Not selfishly as the secular world might. But just to be present in the here so that I can experience everything God is doing here.
The world in my day-dreams, I control.
The world in real life, God retains abundant power over.
I need to leave things in His hands.
Random thoughts on this Super Sunday:
Well done Saints. Well done. You believed well. You overcame your opponents. You made some risky plays. You fought hard. You got back up when you were knocked down. You made some mistakes. You learned from those mistakes. You played your game. I think we all could take a lesson from you. Because, honestly, I want to hear God's rumbling voice say the same thing to me someday. So well done Saints. Well done.
Been awhile.
I haven't written this entire year yet.
I suppose the words haven't been there.
Neither has the motivation to try.
But I feel the need returning.
I remember when I first signed on to blogger. I had these crazy ideas/dreams of big things happening. I figured people all over the country would stumble across my blog and this incredible movement might start. Right here. Looking back, I just laugh at my pathetic self for thinking such thoughts.
I've always been a day-dreamer. My mind constantly skipping about, always finding another world to exist within. I was one who could sit under a cloud-filled sky for hours and unchain my mind to explore those puffs of water-filled molecule masses. I was the guy who played in rock bands before thousands of screaming fans. Played for championship basketball teams and got interviewed after the game by an attractive journalist. Oh, and offered passionate sermons in front of a crowd eating up my every witty and spirit-filled word. All from the comforts of my bathroom mirror. I don't quite understand why it happens. I just know it happens. And it has been happening more often. Why do we day-dream? Is it healthy? Is it healthy to not be living in the here? To repeatedly make up a world in our minds, a world where we are in charge and control everything that takes place? Are my day-dreams trying to make up for something I subconsciously believe are lacking in my life? I am not sure. I just feel they are beginning to hinder my life. To hinder how I see myself and how I view the world around me. Because... in real time... I am not in control. I am so removed from control. I want to start seeing this world, this life through new eyes. To live in the here. Not selfishly as the secular world might. But just to be present in the here so that I can experience everything God is doing here.
The world in my day-dreams, I control.
The world in real life, God retains abundant power over.
I need to leave things in His hands.
Random thoughts on this Super Sunday:
Well done Saints. Well done. You believed well. You overcame your opponents. You made some risky plays. You fought hard. You got back up when you were knocked down. You made some mistakes. You learned from those mistakes. You played your game. I think we all could take a lesson from you. Because, honestly, I want to hear God's rumbling voice say the same thing to me someday. So well done Saints. Well done.
1 comment:
I can relate...good thoughts.
(dropped by from hsa)
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